Daily Living with Chronic Illness

Every day is a struggle to ger up. Life isn't easy for a normal person, and it isn't easy for someone dealing with chronic illness. This isn't a blog to whine about my illness, but neither will I pretend everything is fine. It's not. I'm sick. What do you have? You may ask. What I know for sure is that I have Epstein-Barr and Adrenal Fatigue. No biggie, you may say. It's not cancer. Well, try living with cancer-like symptoms every day with no cure. This is serious, and many others are dealing with this on a daily basis. Family and friends may not be sympathetic, or don't care, or think that you should suck it up and deal with it. I can't and neither can many others. But there is hope. Even though I spend most every day unable to move from the couch, God has given me a few ministries. It might not be much in the eyes of others, but it's a way that I can still be useful. Sometimes my house doesn't get cleaned for a month. Yuck!! Sometimes I don't do laundry until my husband has no more clothes and has to wear dirty clothes to work. Disgusting!! Sometimes we only have dinner because my husband made it. Lazy Bum, you might say. Definitely not! I'm a perfectionist and every aspect of this kills me. Oftentimes I feel guilty, but God is using this to teach me something. Some of you may be feeling sorry for my husband. But don't tell him that, he might take off your head. He has been and is my greatest encourager. Whenever I feel guilty he tells me to knock it off. And, when I care to much  about what others think of my wifely abilities he says I'm doing exactly what he needs me to do. Every day he thanks me for being such a wonderful wife. I know, it still puzzles me too. But, I am thankful that God has taught my husband in 2 1/2 years what most men don't learn until 20-30 years of marriage. I'm not superwoman, and I am most definitely the weaker vessel.